Fic Qui (Reviewing "Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock")

Hoo boy. How do you talk about "Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock" by Matthew Quick? The book is disturbing, to be sure, but it has a sense of humor, a deep self-depreciation, and a wonderful back and forth dialogue.

A quick summary for you: Leonard is a bit different. He loves Hamlet by Shakespeare and movies with Humphrey Bogart. He sometimes skips school to pretend to be an adult, dressing in his "funeral suit" to follow the most miserable adult on the bus wherever they're going. And on the day of his eighteenth birthday, he decides that he is going to take his grandfather's WWII war trophy, a P-38 Nazi handgun, and kill both his former best friend, Asher, and himself. But before he decides to "shuffle off this mortal coil", he wants to deliver gifts to those who have meant the most to him: his Bogie loving neighbor, Walt, a violin playing classmate from Iran named Baback, a home schooled student, Lauren, and his history of the holocaust teacher, Herr Silverman. As he delivers his last gifts, Leonard slowly reveals his secrets and what has led to his startling decision to commit murder-suicide.

Yes, this book is a little depressing. Yes, this book is a little disturbing. Yes, this book is DEFINITELY for a more adult reader. Between the subject matter, the language (the f-bomb is dropped numerous times), and the general mental stability of our main character, the book is great for a more advanced, more mature reader.

Five Defects

1. This book has sporadic footnotes. I don't mind reading a novel or info book with a plethora of foot notes (I mean, I'm a Mary Roach fan for goodness sakes), but the foot notes exist in the beginning of the book and suddenly no longer exist! Where did they go?
2. I disliked the portrayal of some teachers in the novel. Granted, I take it with a grain of salt - it's teachers from a student's perspective. But I distinctly dislike the portrayal of female educators in this book. It doesn't ruin it for me, though. That and the whole idea of "mandatory reporting" is NOT done in this book.
3. Ugh. Leonard's mother is SO messed up.
4. I understand the letters, I do. They almost made me feel that the book was going to go Sci-Fi on me instead of realistic fiction, though.
5. Why isn't there a firm ending? WHY? I want there to be something a little more firm, but I think the ending is beautiful in its own way.

Five Delights

1. Oh, the humor! It's what makes the serious, really dark subject matter of this book bearable. Without the laughs here and there, the book would be too depressing to read.
2. The book keeps you guessing and doesn't really let you know what's happening until the end. I love how it unfolds as the story progresses.
3. Oh, Herr Silverman. That is a teacher, folks. That is a teacher.
4. The book has a very authentic voice. Matthew Quick obviously understands trauma and mental illness very well. I appreciate a book dealing with some serious mental issues that doesn't handle it like a traditional "mental illness" book.
5. The book messed with my mind and I love a novel like that. As things unfold, I kept on being surprised, turned around, and off balance. I really enjoy that.

Fic Gre (Reviewing "The Fault in Our Stars")

It ended in snot and tears my friends, but what a glorious, heart-wrenching piece of work it was. There are now THREE books/series that make me sob uncontrollably as I finish them:  1) The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, 2) His Dark Materials series by Philip Pullman, AND NOW 3) The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. Read the summary at the link to Goodreads. I'm not going summarize it in this blog post.

I immediately knew I had to read this book when the TITLE of the freakin' book was straight outta Shakespeare. I've always loved quoting Shakespeare's Caesar, saying "The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves, that we are underlings", and how perfectly did John Green work the quote into the novel? PERFECTLY. No really. I'm still a little shell shocked by this book 24-hours after completing it, and I do NOT know how to talk out loud about it yet without getting a little teary. Evidence of a good book that really caused a great deal of TRUE catharsis? Walking into the bedroom with the book to get ready for bed after finishing, being kinda weepy, and then having one's husband ask, "Are you okay?" and only having the response of full-out open weeping while saying multiple times "It's so sad and so beautiful" through a plethora of snot and tears while holding the book to one's chest.

My husband pulled me to him and laughed. Apparently great emotional distress over the lives of fictional characters is a laughing matter.

I was so filled with the book and processing it that I didn't sleep well. I ended up reading another book from 10:45 pm to 1:45 am in order to actually calm myself enough emotionally to sleep. Do all books affect me so? Definitely not. But the books that made me do so before (and EVERY time I read them) are listed above. I've had profound endings I love (see the last book of Garth Nix's Keys to the Kingdom series, for example), but only a few books have made me crazy weepy and emotional. John Green's book is now one of them.

Five Defects:

1. The book really isn't as accessible as I'd like it to be. You need to really GET metaphor, GET nuance, GET the super high-brow vocabulary. This book definitely isn't an "any reader" book. It's for the brainy kids (SORRY!). I wish it was more accessible for more readers.
2. Does the vocab and intelligence of this book sometimes (RARELY) interfere with storytelling? Once in a very little while, but it is a point to make. Green balances it well, but there are a few instances where I wish they could have dropped a joke or two.
3. This book WILL offend someone. Just warning you. It's also one of my reasons for LOVING this book, but for some it will be a defect.
4. DON'T read the last 1/3 of this book in public. You risk crying uncontrollably and looking a fool. As a fellow SLIS student mentioned, it was awkward reading the end of this book at the service desk. Don't do it. I was lucky enough to be in the privacy of my own home with only my hubby to witness my breakdown. (I really have been lucky with these books... I always finish them in relative "aloneness" with someone close enough to hug afterwords). Read the first part wherever, leave the last 1/3 for home.
5. Why does it end like that? WHY???? Okay, I know why. It's a cancer book, people. But really? John Green? You're killing me.

Five Delights:

1. This book WILL offend someone. It has cursing, it has sex, it has death, it has 'violence' and destruction of property. It has groping and inappropriate topics. AND IT'S OKAY! Granted, I'm REALLY open minded, but I think that the REALNESS of this book will hit home for teens.
2. It is FILLED with black humor and INTELLIGENT sarcasm. I grew up with an oncology nurse for a mother; I was always taught that death and dying, while tragic and definitely very personal and serious at times, should always be treated with a side of laughter. Yes, we tell jokes at funerals. Yes, we've joked with a family friend passing from cancer about the sheer amount of puke he could heave after a chemo treatment. It's kinda how I grew up and I LOVE that Green fills the novel with this light-hearted fare. Without it, the book would be awful and depressing. With it, it shines.
3. I love how it has a "sex scene" without actually writing a sex scene... and the freakin' Venn diagram afterwords! Thank you for an absolutely GORGEOUS handling of sex in a teen novel, John Green. As an adult reader, I really appreciated it.
4. The metaphor, the poetry, the use of literary devices throughout. The story is great, but the prose is marvelous. I'm so wrapped up in it. It's so full of marvelous quotes and poetry. Simply amazing.
5. I KNEW how it was going to end, but I couldn't stop reading. Green does a fantastic job of writing some of the saddest subject matter EVER - it's a cancer book, people. But it's not the "magically I'm cured" type of cancer book, it's the true nitty gritty cancer book. Thank you for that, especially thank you for a book that an audience LIVING the book will appreciate.